'Ki Aaj' - Part 2

Ki pyaar tera bahut hi alag sa kuch raha

Ki jarurat nahi thi tujhe mujhe paane ya khone ki

Ki jud gaye the yunki hum bina kisi bahane ke

Sath rehne ki koi wajah jaruri na thi

Ki aaj bhi yeh ruh tere ehsaas par mahak rahi

Ki koi aur ispe apna haq kabhi na payega

Ki nazaron mein ek lau aaj bhi hai jal rahi

Adhuri hamari batein khud hi khud mein kahin ghul rahi

Ki afsos nahi hai hume aaj kisi bhi baat ka

Ki dil hi dil mein ab tak teri jhalak kahin pighal rahi

Ki yaad ab nahi hai ki sath hum kitna rahe

Kuch pal ke us sath mein har sham ab hai dhal rahi

Ki gurur sa hai ho gya ke tum kabhi toh the mile

Ki yeh pyaar khtam na hoga ab, bhale hi ab tum nahi

Ki soch mein hi ab sahi, sath hain par alag nhi

Yeh jism toh bas rakh hai, ruhaniyat-e-maujudgi mein ab teri...

yeh zindagi ubhar rahi

'Ki Aaj' - Part 1

'Ki Aaj'

Ki aaj tere khayal pe aankhen nam nahi hai

Ki aaj dil thoda sukun mein hai

Ki aaj tera naam zubaan pe hasi sa hai

Humne tujhe khone ke baad hi sahi tujse mohabbat toh ki

Ki log kuch paane ki chah mein yun bandhe hue hain

Ki jante nahi kisi ke pyaar ki koi kimat nahi hoti

Ki kho dete hai kisi ko hamesha ke liye

Phir chah kar bhi usse paya nahi jata

Ki aaj khud ko dekh kar aaine mein thoda gurur sa hua

Ki tune humse aisi kuch mohabbat ki thi

Ki aaj ek muskan tere pyaar ki zinda hai labon par

Tune anjane mein hi sahi iss jhali se mohabbat toh ki...



'Ki Aaj' - Part 2

'Our Meet'

I met you with a debonair mind

Flawless talks, a knot to bind

Your fidgety hands, staging a smile

Just took few moments for my heart to travel miles

That slight touch of cheeks

While whispering in your ears

I lost track of what music was playing for the first time

That teensy space of ours was so much mine 

You didn’t leave me the very first day

My heart found a base in your place

And now I leave a piece of me with you every time

Your goosebumps-giving-touch

Your breathing that gives me instincts of way old bonds of times

Your rude words trying to keep me distant

But your eyes silently telling me, ‘let yourself be mine’

They stung deep into my soul

And I know patience is all I need to have

For you may let down your shield

Maybe, just maybe someday

For you are just intimidated

But someday you’ll take me in your arms so tight

And then no matter what happens

Even if we won’t stay together

Our soul will be relieved, it won’t wonder anymore

Just having each other somewhere in the world will be all

A feeling so satisfied

We won’t be scared anymore

We’ll have the whole world

Falling to our smiles

Falling to our smiles.

"Devkund Trek"

Trek among the trees 

On a beautiful trail of leaves 

Experience mesmerizing views 

That will take away all your blues

The lake with glittering gold in between 

The rocks with strength unseen

You climb with a pack of unknown

Just to get your mind blown

 

The spider that hangs on the way

Everybody is pleased to capture her on her web as she lay

The tree that got cut looks like a view breaker

But still it became someone's wallpaper 

The golden field throughout the way

Makes your heart wana stay

The streams of water that flows

Someone took out the shoes to wiggle their toes

You click every step 

And your face glows

The small waterfall that you can't reach to

You sit at the rocks to give it time, that’s never enough

It’s too much of a worthy view 

Then comes the final touch 

That sight so wide

Your soul feels a clutch

You run to the bottom of the waterfall

The water’s so chill, makes something inside you crawl

Oh! it's so cold

But that numbness is what gives you a rush

There’s no sound that you hear now, everything went hush

You feel so high

And see everything with a sigh

It’s like painted with a giant paint brush

 

You then sit around

With the vibration mode on

As you are so cold

But you care less

As in that moment

Nothing else matters

You are now heart bound

And your mind is at rest

And then you start heading back

And that's a thrill 

Coz climbing down 

Scares your heart to drop dead

Still shivering with the cold clothes on

You cannot resist laughing

As your fear is on

Some sliding, some falls

And then someone plays songs

Though it's a nature trail

But music makes it a soothing sail

 

You are back at the lake again

With the setting sun

The gold got spread

Serenity fed

And then the last few steps

The moment when you know

That people will come and go

It’s how the life will flow

This is what you always want

To trek, to wander and to bond

With places, people and beyond

 

"The Touch Unknown"

It's so dark, so deep and scary

That the way couldn't find me

Trapped in a bubble

That dances through the night

There comes a tremble

And the ground drifts apart

I couldn’t find the balance

When you held me tight

The bubble bursts

And the inside feels the flames

It falls into the never lasting time

Grasped within the arms of the unknown

I shut the seen and felt the engulfing monster of time

Gave into the urges

That were never mine

If getting lost is what heals the empty soul

Then let nothing ever find me

Let me get into the willies

And let me vanish in space

With this feeling

That you are mine

That you are mine.

"Udaan"

Man tar-tar ho raha hai

Aur Chehra pe muskaan hai

Dekh lo usse tum bhi

Vahi toh sabki jaan hai

Tehar-tehar ke

Soch samajh ke karti har kam hai

Koi chuk na ho jaye kahin

Vo uss ghar ki shaan hai

Par dekho zara gaur se

Uski nazron mei ek tufaan hai

Sailaab sa machal raha

Use bas ek mauke ki talash hai

Jan lo waqt bada kam hai

Pal-pal bas intzaar hai

Bediyan ab khul rahi

Use ab khudki pehchan hai

Tum kabhi samjhe nahi

Uske bhi kuch armaan hai

Ek pal mein ud gayi

Khula pura asman hai

Mud kar phir aa jayegi 

Ab bhi tumhari yahi soch hai

Par use ab koi fikar nahi

Uske liye hi toh pura jahaan hai...

"White" [Murder Part-2]

The softness of white

And the boldness of red

That is where innocence is bled

Eyes Blind fold, Nervous smile

And with some words unsaid

Deep dark secrets, Scattered feeling

That is where love is shed

Butchers knife in frail hands

She is not the one to dread

Blood in eyes, Cursed soul

That is how she dropped dead

Endless rumors, false acquisitions

That is how she was misread

Unknown facts, masking games

That is how the culprit fled…

Read the First Part here: Murder

Photo courtesy Here

Watch out for the next part. Coming soon...

"Aisa bhi ho jaye kabhi"

Koi hume bhi khone se ghabraye kabhi

Koi hume bhi kaise bhi paana chahe kabhi

Sachi nahin agar baatein kitabon ki

Toh bhi koi uss duniya mein le jana chahe kabhi

Koi bina mile na rehna chahe kabhi

Hume manane ke lakhon tarike dhund laye kabhi

Zindagi toh har kisi ki bandhi hui hai

Tod ke sab humse milne koi aaye kabhi

Koi yunhi humse milna chahe kabhi

Din rat bataon mei ghulna chahe kabhi

Chaand taron par toh bas kisi ka nahi

Par koi kuch bhi kar ke hume hasana chahe kabhi...

Kacha Ehsaas

Ek kaccha sa ehsaas tha
Dab gaya tha kahin
Phir mehsoos naa ho kabhi
Zindagi ke shor mein kho gaya tha kahin

Bade ho gaye na jane kitne
Har ehsaas ko chaanne lage
Umar ke sath khud ko kam se kam pehchanne lage
Milte hi kisi ko das chiz parakhne lage
Phir soch samajh ke kuch mehsoos karne lage

Aur is pakki zindagi mein
Naa jane kyun phir tum se mulakat ho gayi
Phir ji liye kuch pal us kache ehsaas mein
Khud ki masoomiyat se jaise phir se mulakat ho gayi

Waqt itna kam mila ab bhi
Par kuch is kadar gum ho gaye hum tum mein
Jaise sadiyon ke fasle do pal mei kat gaye
Jitna ho sake tujh mein hum simat gaye

Phir muthi se fisal na jaye kahin
Dab na jaye kahin
Ehsaas ko bhi wajah chahiye hoti h aajkal
Bewajah jo ho raha hai
Vo phir kabhi hoga nahi
Par ab Jo ho raha hai
Toh khul kar ise jile abhi...

"The Grey Zone"

“This is high.

It’s scary and it’s going to hurt a lot.”

He thought as he stood on the edge

Of the 30^th floor building

Tried some leaning

But was taken aback

He was unsure

His mind went blank

Some greys in his eyes…

The librarian who worked

At the same place for 20 long years

Stepped outside the main door

Locks, turns

Takes a few steps

Stops and turns back again

Checks the lock

And this is same

For everyday

Coz he couldn’t shake the greys of his mind

                               

A girl says, “I love you too”

And cut the call

Stood up and went to the mirror

Brushes her hair

A doubt in her eyes

As she looks

And asks, “Do I?”

Then heavily shook her head

To loose the greys of her mind

A man in his 60s

Looks at his grandchildren

Smiles and thinks

“I had a beautiful life”

But then something overcrowds his mind

With some flashback memories

He wondered

“If I could still get her back,

Is this the life I’d choose?”

For once he thought of-course

But then again, “Will I?”

He disputed with the greys of his mind

"Murder"

11:00 in the morning 

The phone buzzed

On his office desk

But he cared less

Checked after 15 mins

And the message read, "Come home" 

Followed by a picture

Red walls, dim lights 

Cream curtains and candles 

He recognized the room

But everything's new 

That's how they made up to each other

When fights got big

They made everything new

For a new start…

He rushed to his boss's cabin 

Sir I need a day off

Am going home

His boss stood up

And shook his hand 

With a smile

He went back to his desk

Looked for a flight 

9 at night

Nothings early then that 

Booked

Texted back

Am coming home

Rushed, packed 

Didn't eat

Bought flowers

Lilies, her favorite 

Everybody he met

Or anybody who called

He said

Am going home 

His smile in his eyes

2 am he landed

In the cab

All fidgety

He texted

About to reach

What would he say? What would he do?

How would he react?

Waiting for the lift 

The guard spoke it’s not working

Started taking the stairs

His heart racing

Rang the bell

Again and again

Placed his hand on the door 

It opened 

May be she saw him from the window

The hall looked different too

Everything's nicely set

And all red 

She never let him paint red 

He called her 

Kept calling as he looked 

Then stepped towards the bedroom

Imagining it as in the pic

Opened the door 

Red walls, dim lights

Cream curtains, candles

Cream bedsheets…

Soaked in blood

And she lay there

Her eyes watching the door 

There's hope in them 

He stood there

Couldn't move

His mind racing

Was she the one who texted him?

Did she want him home?

Did he get too late?

Is someone else still there? 

Chills... 

2 years he waited for this day

Never to be forgotten again.

"Ek breakup toh banta hai"

Vo ankhon hi ankhon mein anginat ishaare 

Unki ek jhalak pe badle sab nazare 

Har din ho raha intzaar 

Vo chori ki jhalak bar bar 

Par aata nahin labon pe izhaar

Kash khud-b-khud jud jaye dil ke taar 

Phir ek din ban gayi baat

vo pehli mulakat

Puri na hui jisme dil ki koi bhi baat

Bitaye din sath kuch do chaar 

Aur key diya phir… han tumse hai pyaar 

Bas phir kya…

Milna har roz, batein har din, har raat

Chode sab kaam, kya dost kya parivar 

Nikal gaye kayin mahine 

Jan liya sab, har din, har raaz

Ab shuru hui takraar 

Kabhi tera, kabhi mera

Chalne laga baton ka vaar

Chah ke bhi na raha 

Tute dil, dhara reh gaya pyaar

Har lamha aisa, jaise khatam ho gaya sansaar 

Phir yaad aaye ek-ek krke har yaar

Rona dhona Har kisi ke aage 

Bhale hi ho vo koi dur ka jaankar 

Jise na bhi pata ho tumhare pyar ka hisab 

Sunaya use shuru se ant tak dil ka haal

Phir kam hoti gayi logo ki tumhari kahani mei diljaspi 

Janne lage dhire-dhire tab apni khamoshi 

Khin dil na lage 

Phir thodi zindagi khud hi khud mei guzari 

Soch thodi gehrayi 

Kabhi na sochi thi jo batein 

Vo samajh mein aayi 

Zindagi ke maayene kuch is kadar zehan mein aane lage

Yaha tak aane mein naa jane kitne zamane lage

Phir aaya ek naya ehsaas 

Ab sab badalna hai 

In sabme nahi padna agli baar 

Pehle se jyada dhyan lagaane lage

Ache hone lage sab kaam

Phir kuch mahine, kuch saal 

Badal gaye khud, badla zindagi ka haal 

Khud ko Khud se behtar banaya 

Ab zindagi ka asli mayena samajh mein aaya

Ab jab bhi koi milta hai

Aur kehta hai, tum kitne badal gye

Hum sochte hain tab

Ki hum hi jaante hain hum kaise sambhal gye

Isliye janane ke liye zindagi ka raaz 

Chedna padta hai dil ka har saaz

Chahe jitna bhi gehra ho pyaar 

“Ek breakup toh bnta h yaar”

"Fight Your Fight"

There's always a way, you gotta find
For you can hold on memories
In your eyes
And even in pain
You can hold a smile
Coz life is yours, to loose or find
Stay strong and hold on tight
For there will be many obstacles
But if you root in tight
You can have branches
Spread so giant
Nothing can make you move
Just fight your fight...